Reading this, my belief that I no longer am a good person (or ever was) is more confirmed. In my histrionics, selfishness and goodness knows what more, I did more damage than anybody else. I know it. She never was like this before and for her becoming like this, I know nobody but me is responsible. I don’t know how I can be considered a good or loving person after seeing how much damage I did to her.

Answering your questions, thinking from her point of view… Jerry always prized her relation with me. To the extent that she was willing to put up with so much just to maintain the bond. She told my friends that she loves me and never wants to lose me. She asked me to promise to be with her always. She felt she could count on me to be a humble and loving brother to her, always. When she found out about my feelings… she felt most shocked and betrayed, for reasons we’ve discussed. And afraid… because she knew that if her family ever found out, it would be disaster beyond imagination. She discussed with her sister and decided that my feelings are not something that can be eradicated so easily… and therefore she now has no choice but to choose between me and her family. And her sister hated me for my actions and let me have it, without showing any of Jerry’s restraint or mercy. I hope I’ve been able to analyze correctly somewhat.

I love Jerry and I want to…
1) Comfort her and make up for all the pain I caused her. Show that I understand what she has undergone, genuinely regret it and I have been doing my best to change myself for her
2) Help her understand that I never stopped loving and caring for her
3) Assure her that I would never do anything that puts her or her reputation at risk. That I would get rid of my feelings if only to be with her, even in an inferior relation, because nothing is more important to me.
4) Let her know that I am always there for her, as she asked of me. And I always will be.

I hope it doesn’t sound selfish. I tried my best to look at it from her POV firstly.