When he went MIA, I think I knew somewhere deep inside that we would reconcile at some point. Or at least hoped. My efforts in dating were futile because he was always in the back of my mind.

I certainly didn’t feel the loss that I feel now… the soul wrenching pain that I feel now. And while I hope for reconciliation again, I also think that somewhere I know for sure it won’t happen. I mean, I’m at the point where I would give anything, literally anything to have him back. And yet I know that it’s not a good idea nor is it right.