OK Anita. I understand. I edited and wrote that I have no right to consider myself above the rules, because it shows me accepting my arrogance and repenting it, also accepting what my place is. But can remove it as needed too. Please see if this is ok.

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Hi Jerry. I’m messaging because my exams are over at last and I am not as distressed as I was before. My thinking is clearer and my understanding has improved. I now accept that we both are governed by social and cultural rules, and I have no right to consider myself above the same. I accept I have done a great wrong. I betrayed our bro-sis relationship. Through our whole communication, you loved me as a brother, and as a brother only. Your actions were strictly that of a sister. You have done no wrong. It was I who failed to live up to your trust and faith in me. I made a truly terrible mistake. I’m sorry for everything you had to suffer because of me.

I miss you and the bond we shared. If it is indeed over, I must accept it. If it is your need now that I must no longer message you, then I must comply. This would be the loving thing for me to do. I must not again violate your rights and disregard your feelings. My depression and pain are mine to deal with, my responsibility and not yours. Your responsibility is to do what is right for you; to take care of yourself and be happy. I regret betraying our sister/brother bond and am more than willing to do everything I can to resurrect it and make it better. I will be the best brother a sister can have. But you would be the one to decide if you will give me another chance, and if you do, it will be you to decide if I succeed or not.

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