Thank you to you all for your replies and I’m sorry that so many of you relate to my situation and have to go through what I have too.
I know that I need to be happy with myself before anyone else will be happy with me but I don’t know how. I think I’m a decent person, and I don’t really see why I don’t meet anyone new other than the fact that I rarely go anywhere to meet someone. And that’s not going to change as all I do is work, gym, CrossFit, and then all social events are normally couples dinners, weddings, baby showers.

I honestly don’t know how to get out of this hole. And I can’t stop thinking about my ex, waiting for the next time he turns up or tries to contact me…and then scared that maybe he won’t and wondering how I get over knowing that he just left me and moved on and didn’t care about me.

My heart actually hurts. I hate my life so much and I resent everyone around me who’s happy.