Thanks Anita, yes its very true. Some days are better than others for sure. It’s so easy to hate my parents for seemingly causing so much unnecessary struggle my life up to this point because they couldn’t handle their own s*&$. Pardon the french but its true. It’s like I almost have this anger inside of me and that’s the emotion that is the most hard to deal with. It makes me dislike other people because I never learned to trust people. I repeat negative cycles in all of my relationships to the point where I think people think Im crazy because I have such a guard up now. Working with my inner child and inner parent is big. But its difficult. Patience truly is a virtue. I would like to look into some counselling or therapy once the repercussions from my recent break up calm down. It sucks because I am going through that guilt phase of hurting somebody who was a good person but just had his own issues when he first met me. However he doesn’t seem to understand how important building trust is to me and he thought that if he was just nice, then things would be all good. Cutting out people is very hard, especially family. It sounds like that’s what it takes sometimes to heal from the past. Some people just don’t get it. But I do. Following your gut really does seem to be the best way to go with most cases, especially painful relationships.