Dear Peter:

Your distress is evident. You asked: “– How do I find what’s important to me? How do I learn to develop myself?”

This is my best answer at this point after reading your original post:

You start from the beginning. Berlin, if it is a city of opportunities, it is such for a person ready for it and you are not.

You can’t work on the upper parts of a building before the building has a foundation. It doesn’t matter how old you are, 33, 43 or 63. If you don’t have a foundation, one has to be built.

The foundation is in your home life as you developed, as you were formed (those Formative years)- something is missing there. Find it and you will have that (gentle) “kick in the right direction” and a sense of power in your life.

Do your best to not compare yourself to others your age or younger. Many of them, unfortunately, are not as happy as they seem to you. Many of them are struggling. Many need visit their foundations and so, you are not alone.

Hope you post again and again.

anita