Hey there HikerGal, I’m sorry you’re hurting and still hurting more!!! Is that in store for me?? I’m also in my 40’s and split with my partner of 3 years a month ago. It’s horrible isn’t it, it’s just a huge roller coaster of emotion! I want to get off. I thought I’d just tough it out and straight away start dating again. It didn’t work, my heart just wasn’t in it. How are you feeling now? Does he still have your heart? You just have to be honest with yourself. The lonely Ness is the killer though!! I have friends but they just don’t fill the void of a lover. If you ever want to talk or if you feel lonely please feel free to talk. I know I could do with someone to talk to who understands. Take care, you’re not alone out there.