Wow, this si unbeliveable.

When I was junger (despite the chaotic family) I had more security and easier goals somehow. I was great at school, people had really big expectations I could meet back then easily. And I was quite independent. So the big and important choices in life were mine.
But the insecurities and feeling lost came at college where I’ve figured out that the program was so bad it wasn’t preparing us to get a job in this field at all. And I started feeling like I don’t know any more what’s expected of me…and have no idea what direction to take in life. I dind’t feel informed enough, or capable enough.

It’s really interesting that you’ve made such a good analogy with driving. Because it was a major issue to me…I’ didn’t want to get a driving license at 18 when my parents wanted me to get it…I was affraid of driving. That was kind of weird because I loved to travel and be driven around. Years passed and I didn’t have the money or the time to go to driving school…last year I finally did and got the license. And it was probably one of the hardest struggles in my life. I’m still insecure behind a wheel because I don’t have a car and I didn’t feel the calmness or trust from my ex boyfriend driving his. So I gave up asking him. And driving for I while, but, when I get the chance I’ll continue.

I also came to the conclusion that this fear of driving came from fear of taking control in my life…because I never had an accident or something bad I could relate to driving.