I could have written this myself. I hate to know that others have and are feeling the pain that I felt/feel. But selfishly I am happy as well to know that there is nothing wrong with me (per se) that I am not the only one. I dated a man off and on over the last 14 months who I FELT I loved and loved me but he took me the worst emotional roller coaster of my life through the entire thing. Burning hot and then Ice Cold….off and on… over and over. It’s been one week since I have heard from him. I am TRYING to move on with my life as I know this “relationship” is not healthy. I have been doing good with my not attempting to reach out and I have deleted him from my phone but I have this overwhelming need for closure. I am almost scared that I will never hear from him again and I will never be able to express to him how much he has hurt me. At this point I don’t even know that he cares if he did?! I am trusting in GOD that he will see me through this. Some days the pain is crippling because I thought this would be the man I would spend the rest of my life with. I don’t know what the future holds for he and I. If we will ever speak again and if I can ever even be his friend or if I should even want to. I am an good person with a huge heart. I never did anything to hurt him and I can’t wrap my brain around why he continually hurt me seemingly without any real remorse. I refuse to be a gluten for punishment and keep breaking my own heart. Please pray for me that I will stay strong and hold out for the love that I deserve. Thank and GOD bless you all who are hurting as well.