Hi Indie

I can relate to this . I feel like an observer in the world . I can be in a room full of people and feel totally disconnected from it . My past has been bad too. Lots of trauma and heartache . I am glad you don’t self harm & have been blessed with a daughter how wonderful :).

I am wondering if to make you feel more alive you could do something that either involves meeting new people , something physical or totally different?

Also I am wondering if you are depressed , I have never been formally diagnosed but I certainly suffer depression and it really takes the shine out of life .

Kat