Well, this is a great explanation of why my confidence is low…and my brother’s too.

I feel like I have some when things are right, there aren’t major problems at work, I have some other project to work on, finances are all right (which is almost impossible to obtain in this crazy little country).

But when problems appear or something from my private life influence me, I feel defeated. And this is a state I was in for a few months now…because I had to get a loan (big one) to do some serious dental work. Now I feel somehow forced to stay at the same job and same place because of the security…and this is something I was trying to avoid my whole life.

I think that the most important thing for me would be to find ways to change things I’m not comfortable with earlier than I did. I usually find the courage to make big changes at the moment when things become bad enough, almost unbearable.

I should be able to express disagreement and try to resolve the conflict or the situation I’m uncomfortable in earlier.