Hello CMI,

Yes…. Although I am getting over him and it is getting easier dya by day. I am with you. AT this point I know I shouldn’t care but part of me see’s him as a Darth Vadar type (Bad but with good still in him). When we were together most of the time he was wonderful so it’s just hard for me to believe sometimes that it was all just a façade. I think he is a damaged person who does not know how to love “correctly”. At times he was so loving & caring but I can only assume it was part of his sociopathic charm. I still pray for him everyday and although he crushed me I struggle with still loving & caring for him and hating him for what he did to me. And yes it is a very hard pill to swallow. I just have to keep reminding myself that I am surely not the only person he as victimized he is very good and has probably had lots of practice before me so I shouldn’t be so hard on myself that I “fell” for it all. I am hoping he will leave me alone asap so I can completely move on. I think he sends the texts just so I will not forget him. How cruel. GOD help me. Thank you! I am trying!!

Butterfly