Hello guys
So I was in a relationship with my ex for a year and a half. We got engaged and we were planning everythng. Well I was planning.After he proposed me, 3 months after he started to change. I started to live with him everyday and to see really who is he. I ended the relationship 3 months ago. It stll hurts. We even planned the babys name and Iam not even pregnant.
I must say my familly, they said that he changed, on the worse. He was angry. He was not talking to me. He said that I was too emitional. Even, I must say when we were dating 6 months, we haid a situation. If I knew then what I know now, I would have left before engagment. He found my screenshoot about my ex-wanna-be boyfriend with his girl. And he was so angry. That night he,I could say sexually harased me. He punnished me at that way.He wanted to make a point that I was his. Even thou he was my first boyfriend that I slept with.
When I think about the thing he would said like: I doubt it that I am your first. you can not love.
I was so suporting to him. I payed for f—ing everything. I even was driving one night and cryed, and he was just talking how I did everything wrong. Everything is my fault. LIke I dont understand him and that I will leave him like everybody else. I am like everybody else, he is alone.
ANd my thing is now, question: How to stop thinking about him? I must say I become addicted to him. He was my everything. I know that he did wrong things to me, but after the break up he says,he have changed. I dont believe him. Everything got so complicated.
How to start my own life without him? I am asking myswlf how is he? what is he doing? I am jeaouls of other females.
I have so much words that are flowing in my head. But my maine question is how to not contact him? How to convict myself that I will and That I am capable to take care of myself by myself?
He contacted me yesterday and today I am in such negative way of thinking. Like I know its bad, really bad but I feel like if he becomes succesfull as an person that I am a failure. Please tell me what to do. Also,I must say I am forever grateful to my familly because they saw it before me, who he was.
Sorry for my text, I know its kinda messy and unclear but I am under such impression of your stories.
**sorry for my english. I am not a native speaker
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