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Glenys, I wish I could, but my friend lives an hour away from me, and my job doesn’t really pay enough for me to help her with rent.
Nina Sakura, it is hard and hard to try and keep a positive attitude. It’s especially hard when you’re someone like me who suffers from anxiety. As far as finding a better career, I’ve never really had a hard-core interest in anything. Whenever I think about it the only thing that I can think of that I have a deep genuine interest in is traveling, but I don’t see a stable career in traveling. What I really want to do is teach English abroad. I’ve been wanting to do this since about 2010, but I’ve never really told anyone about that. And I much too scared to tell my mom. So when I graduated from college, I felt stuck. So fast-forward to last year I accepted a teaching job because I wanted to have the experience of teaching at home before teaching abroad. But that I experience was terrible. I ended up having to resign after two months because of anxiety and stress. I still want to teach abroad, but ever since that horrible experience I kind of feel like all my teaching experiences will be like that if I go back to teaching. Then, I’m an only child and I just have this fear that something will happen to my mom and I won’t be at home to help.
Anita, I know I keep posting about this. I really do want to teach English abroad, but based on my past experience with teaching, the decision makes me a bit wary of going back into teaching too. I mean, I won’t know if I don’t try and I can’t keep hopping from retail job to retail job. I actually think I’m giving myself anxiety because of this job. But I think it’s just fear that’s stopping me from taking such a big risk. I actually read an article on here about waiting for the right moment, and I think that’s what I’m waiting for, but in this case there may never be a perfect moment to start, but I’m just worried. I just don’t want this teaching experience to be as horrible as the last one.