You are so right Anita. I had thought I was nearing the end of the grieving both for the loss of my parents and the loss of him and our family. I guess I still need time. I had my head in a good space for awhile but retirement with oodles of alone time has set me back a little. We were just legally divorced recently too and it seems like I have to re-visit it every so often. He certainly has never given me any indication that he’d ever want to be with me, so it’s feels silly to be upset. I guess I should stop scrap booking pictures from our life as a family, huh! Thanks for the thoughts – I always appreciate your take on things!