Hey man!

I’m glad to tell you me and ‘E’ are still together, almost 2 years after this was posted.
We have been together since.

You must realise that your relationship is (or was) toxic.
It cannot serve you and it is not realistic to expect it to go forever.
People break up and even get divorced for a reason.
Sometimes you reach a point where there is no going back.

Everyone has their problems and your ex saying she wants to die is not a reason to go running to her.
That’s her thing to deal with and while they may have depression, they may also be seeking your attention and playing you.

People can be very selfish and narcissistic.
I will link a video I made on the topic.
It may not be something you relate to, but ultimately it is time for you to move on.
You need to keep your friends close and maybe see a therapist in the beginning, but you already know it’s what you need to do.
Stop fighting the inevitable.

And calling it quits for good may scare you, but you are not living a sane life right now.
It is odd how you can want someone while knowing they are bad for you, but it gets easier as time goes on and you realise you are not the same person anymore. Trust me.

Make the jump my friend.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mqpUX5bKH9U