Dear turkeysub3000:

Congratulations for abstaining from alcohol, pot and nicotine. And for eating well and exercising.

Obviously there is a change that needs to happen so some passion, a motivation returns to you.

From a first reading of your post, it seems to me that the repeated returning to live with your mother, and staying in your hometown is draining your energy. If so, can you move out of your mother’s and your hometown and stay away?

anita