I hope people are still posting on this forum. I’m in a abusive relationship which everyone tells me to leave. I’ve left him a few times but then I feel I can not cope without him like I can’t function and have him back. Half of my family aren’t talking to me anymore.
He’s self absorbed and selfish we live together and everyday I want to tell him it’s over but then it comes to it and I can’t do it.
He switches from nasty to nice well they can’t be nasty all the time we would defiantly leave them then.
When he comes back I feel normal again like when I get rid of him I don’t feel normal in myself and can’t eat etc
I don’t feel loved or cherished and hold on for the good times he even ruined my birthday and made me cry on my birthday.

I don’t want to be in this anymore but yet can’t get out.