Dear kodi208:

As an anxious person myself, this is my input: quit the job if you and your husband can handle finances without your job, that is, handle taking care of the minimum required to live well (I am not materialistic so “living well” for me does not include fancy vacations and second property and so forth).

There are two ways to reduce anxiety and increase well being: I call them the Macro and the Micro. The Micro are all the things you tried: meditation, yoga etc.: doing what you can to calm that space in between one’s ears.

The Macro is arranging your life circumstances so that the anxiety is not triggered. Because you feel inadequate in your job and have felt it for so long, consistently (regardless of all the Micro work)- then re-arrange your life so it is congruent with who you are. Either do a job where you feel adequate, and not excessively bored, or remove yourself completely from employment, be at home with your child.

Attack the problem Micro AND Macro is my advice.

anita