Monklet80,

Quit confusing isn’t it? Unfortunately, my ex boyfriend is not boyfriend/relationship material. I know that may come off as he’s just a terrible person. He’s not.He is amazing. He is however a very damaged and complex man. Complex doesn’t even begin to describe him. He had a very rough upbringing and that has now shaped who he is as a man. That is what stops us being in a “couples relationship.”
As of now, I am really putting in a lot of thought to this “friendship”, as you are correct, it is no different than actually being in a relationship. Ours is basically a relationship with no title. We continue to have the same issues as when we were in a relationship. I would have loved to continue our relationship, I truly fell madly in love with him, but life isn’t always about happy endings and I know a true relationship with him is impossible. At one point we even went to therapy, for him as an individual and as a couple as well. It didn’t work. He knows he has issues deeper than the ocean but refuses to work on himself. Acknowledges them and at the same time ignores them. He has his self-sufficient mode ON 24/7 and there is no getting past that. It might be time for me to completely let go. I just don’t know how to. 🙁

Thank you for taking the time to read and respond!

PEACE & LOVE,

Ganesha87