They have always said that different people mature at different times, and I was never encouraged to move out or distance myself. They want me to be independent and successful but they also make it too easy to be lazy at home. They would take care of things for me in the past. It’s only recently that I’ve started taking care of things on my own. I feel like I’m a bit incompetent when it comes to certain things, like filling/finding certain tax forms or figuring out what goes into applying for student loans. I would usually procrastinate, which lead to my mom taking care of it all. I no longer do this but I still don’t feel secure with my own abilities, like I still have the training wheels on. I can figure everything out on my own need be, but if my parents weren’t around I feel like the stress and uncertainty would be overwhelming. My dad is nearly 70 and my grandfather on his side of the family died of a heart attack at 64. I’m terrified of losing him and I worry about what my mom will do once he’s gone. She’s foreign and doesn’t speak English too well, nor does she have friends in this town, so I picture myself taking care of her later on. Yet this isn’t the life I want for myself. Part of me wishes I could live independently but I worry about them too much to leave, plus I rely on their support too much.