Dear None:

Of course you love your mother. I don’t think there is a child in the world that doesn’t. It doesn’t matter what kind of a mother a child has, the child will love her. It can be the cruelest mother of all mothers, and she will be loved by her child. Loving your mother is automatic.

Loving your mother does not mean she is good for you and that you should seek her company.

You wrote that you feel sorry for your mother because she grew up without a mother. But… why doesn’t she feel sorry for you; why doesn’t she have empathy for you? You are greatly suffering.

Children often feel sorry, having empathy for the parent while the parent does not have empathy for the child.

You wrote: “I am- giving my back to my background concrete wall that I can hardly destroy and in front of the same wall of my future” –

The lack of empathy by your mother, her mistreatment of you is the first concrete wall. For as long as you are not fully aware that she is your concrete wall (for as long as you keep waiting for her to love you), you are most likely to come across the second concrete wall.

Once you see her abuse of you for what it is, you will also be able to see abuse from others and avoid it and/ or assert yourself against it.

anita