I guess I should also mention my hard time was I am suicidal, told facebook I was thinking of taking my life. She came out of nowhere and we started texting, meeting up for coffee a few times and a few doctors appointments to help me. I told a fib to the doctors on Friday saying I took all 30 anti depressants in the 6 days when I only took 15, was looking to get a new batch so I could take a fatal dose tonight and got sent to the hospital for 5 hrs for a crazy high blood pressure (199/99), so my plan was ruined. But didn’t want to get caught in a lie so I just kept saying I took all 30, including to the amazing woman because I just can’t take this pain anymore. She thinks of me as an amazing guy because all the things I do to help people out, never ask for anything in return. I help people as much as I can, not for rewards but because it’s just something I do.