Dear Midnight:

I know your ROCD thoughts are connected to real-life facts and experiences. For example, you really had a “somewhat philosophical discussion lately” with your husband, in real life. And he probably didn’t express as much of an intellectual insight into the discussion as you have, in real life, maybe less than other men have in your life experience.

So there are always real life facts that trigger the ROCD thinking.

But the core of the ROCD, the cause of the anxiety fueling the ROCD is not in the real life lack of adequate intellect in that particular discussion you had lately.

I asked you questions about your childhood because I believe the core of your ROCD is there.

If you feel uncomfortable sharing more about your childhood here, do not. You may want to share without giving identifiable information like ages and timelines which could be connected to you by someone reading your thread, if that helps.

Thing is in two years of therapy, with the therapist’s legal obligation to not share your shares with anyone, no insight has been made regarding your childhood-and your ROCD.

Proceed as you choose.

anita