Rayasanguin,

You sound tough according to me. cut yourself some slack – it’s not you, it’s just the situation – long distances are anyway hard and when partners are in high-stress situations harder still. You have been managing quite well despite what you think actually and we all need that 1 person atleast whom we can really talk to, not just the nice talk, the shitty “oh baby, I am exhausted” thing – it’s not a dependance issue, you are a human being and we need support systems, some intimacy. you have feelings too. Right now he is simply really far away and most guys actually suck big time at this texting stuff I have noticed.

As for what you mentioned in the end, it would be a good idea to deal with emotions of the past through therapy.

Please do share any time soon

Regards,
Nina