Dear ajax379:

You asked:
1. how long you have been struggling with those self critical thoughts? at least 45 years(I am 55).

2. Are they less prevalent for you these days or do they come at the same frequency but are less impactful now? Less prevalent. Over the years I was very dissociated, that is spaced out, not present, daydreaming, confused, etc. For a while now I am … well, re-associated, present, no longer daydreaming, and am clear. I am way less tired. More awake. And feel the fear when I imagine that I am about to be attacked, the heart racing, the light headedness. Still do.

anita