Hi Kath,

Yeah it is very messy indeed and I caused this mess… I clung to my ex as a friend because I have really bad attachment issues… I lost both parents before I was 10 and then every relative that cared for me after I lost as well… I’ve been to therapy over this and when I have someone in my life that is there for me through anything, I get very anxious about the friendship ending… I do this with my female friends too…. It’s a problem I am still actively working on..

And my ex and I weren’t on a daily, weekly speaking basis.. We would talk, then not, then talk, then not through the last 3 years… He was the guy I dated for a few months in-between my boyfriend of 7 years and I breaking up …. He helped me through a lot of darkness during this time and I didn’t want to hurt him by showing all he did for me was in vein….

As screwed up as this situation is, my heart is broken for hurting people… I genuinely do not like doing this AT ALL…. I’ve never hurt or broken up with anyone in my life and I’m 30…. I’m devastated over how badly I hurt my bf..

Thanks!