Dear Nan:

You are allowed ten brain blips per post- I say. Being numb, is like being on automatic, like a robot, allows maximum functioning in high stress situations. The move itself, a couple of hotels, a new apartment, boxes, that by itself is very stressful. See R-2: he is taking care of the minimum (only his personal concerns, his personal stuff) – and he is stressed too. And you take care of much more and have a plan that is stressful, so …

I was critical of R-1 but I suppose as imperfect as he is, he does love you and you love him. He has a calming affect on you, puts no pressure on you, treats you well, so I am hopeful.

If I was you, I wouldn’t expect to feel much this way or that way for a while. This numbness may go on even as you leave R-2 altogether, and maybe for a time after. Eventually, you will feel … light, I imagine, calmer, slowly you may feel … younger. I imagine the changes in your emotional experience will be slow and gradual.

Hope you found your boots!

anita