Hi anita 🙂
I’ve started applying into masters programs abroad, that is one thing that would be socially acceptable as well as get me some space. If I do get in, however, there is a year from now until that will start and until then I’m trying to have as many things outside of home that build my self esteem as possible. But apart from that, dont really know. Its also confusing, because even if I do get out of this situation, I’m slightly afraid of my own self destructive tendencies kicking in, that is I intentionally mess things up when Im close to succeeding at something and while I am aware of this, I havent been able to gain much control over it.