Dear blkhwkdwn1:

I think that what happened with this friend, or used-to-be-friend, or limited-to-crisis friend is that what she did for you triggered your need for much more and so you were left feeling more intensely, as a result of her involvement in your life, the LACK and emptiness. She intended to help you but she didn’t know you need so much more, that it would have been better for you, maybe, is she didn’t reach out to you at all.

It is like giving a starving person a small piece of bread with butter/ your favorite topping, it just makes you want MORE, it open your appetite for more.

You are not alone- you have friends here. I am one. Yes, I am a real person, sitting now in front of the computer in a cold and grey day in a business location in the city (no power or internet in my home today and maybe for days because of a storm).

Anyway, yes, I am a real person. Have felt lots of pain in the past, still experiencing anxiety daily although healing is significant and ongoing. You are not alone. Stick around. Post anytime. I will reply whenever and wherever I have power and internet, and for as long as this website exists and I am welcome in it.

anita