Dear Hareesh:

Please get professional help immediately. This website does not provide the professional help required when one considers what you are considering. Call a hotline and/ or check yourself into a hospital, please.

Regarding being a failure- you failed only on the things you tried. You didn’t fail the things you didn’t try.

What I think you didn’t try is to accept yourself as you are right now; accept your life as it is now, without judgment, but with self empathy. Then take it one small step at a time on a journey for a better life.

anita