Crossing my fingers she comes to our buddies gig next Friday. She said “Yes but I usually work Fridays :(” If not then i’ll have to get together with her with some people some other time soon after. Remember when we had dinner together? I said “we should go for coffee in a month, she said “that’s too long away Pat”, as in we should get a coffee in a few weeks, but it’s been 3 weeks and it’s my turn to ask her for a coffee this time, but I can’t seem to do it…I want to but my feelings were “she was just being nice” or w/e, whatever my anxiety stirs up. Always feel like “WHY WOULD SHE WANNA HANG OUT WITH YOU STILL???”, i’m a mess…don’t plan to go get meds or see a therapist like she wants me to in that text convo I posted. I don’t want to, my plan is still the same to hopefully die soon. Never changed, never will tbh.