Dear sweet jnv1,

Yes, it is true that right now what you are going through is not one of those favourable situations one may desire in life and I do have deep compassion towards that.
I will suggest you something for each of your problems and I’m sure you will come out of it and I am not saying this for the sake of saying.
Regarding your health condition that your doctor just came up with- Trust me, I have seen/heard so many of such extreme cases and have noticed that due to advancements in the medical field you do still have the chances of becoming a mother, either by direct or indirect medical techniques. Be rest assured about that. Right now only focus on other issues that may require to “heal”. It’s not even about your job. You will get your job life back too. Simply keep applying to open job positions, as and when required and proceed further (more below).
It is also not about the love you lost. You are going to fall in love back again – with yourself, with life and in turn will have the love of your life.
“…Having a horrible childhood, always being anxious and depressed about the future, unsure about the purpose of all this pain, have a feeling that there is a never ending pain in life…”
For all of these and to regain back in all 3 major areas of your life – Health, Wealth, Relationships, I recommend you the following-
1. At first simply go through the below article with an open mind

Cellular Memory Healing: How to Clear Limiting Beliefs and Emotional Wounds at the Cellular Level

By doing so, itself will make many things clear to you.
2. On the similar lines, go through the FREE video series
http://www.dralexanderloyd.com/the-love-code/
3. Start following the process. Not a single penny you have to spend to do them. The instructions on how to do the technique is much better in the link in Point No 1. above, than in the video.
4. If you are still intrigued, or want to understand more, then you may also go through the book at the below link

You can also go through the positive reviews on the above link. Don’t get bogged down by negative reviews because there are going to be negatives for anything positive in life and you may not want to miss out on something good because of those.

For your additional information – ‘The Love Code’ was formerly called as ‘Beyond Willpower’

Please do post back your progress in life by whichever means you choose, The Love Code or by anything else that you do.

Take Care,
VJ