Thank you so much! It made a lot of sense to me.
Coming full circle with the mother-escaping scenario, I feel that, at some moment, especially when we started arguing over my distance, I started associating my boyfriend’s role in my life as my mother’s: he was no longer there to be my partner, having fun with me and encouraging me to go further with him in life and the world, I felt as if he was there to call me and ask me to come back home for mim… but, then, why didn’t I call him to come with me, you know? I´m realy divided trying to evaluate how much of what happened was me unsatified with my relationship or how much I was unsatisfied with my life and projecting things into it.
My therapist told me I’m hidding behind the curtain for my parents to reach me. I´m escaping but still waiting for them to come. I dont know if I take this metaphor as a call to escape once and for all or to stop hidding behind the curtain and telling my lover how I really feel and try to get back.