Hello Anita,
I really appreciate your insight and response. As it is helping me become more aware. The point you wrote are very true, I am constantly hopelessly wanting him to realize that. As I spent years building him up. I just dont know how to let go. I constantly overthink about it. I have picked up new hobbies and spend time with friends and family. But I feel so alone due to the fact I became so codependent for emotional support that I was willing to take the bare minimum. Also juggling my chaotic life as a single parent while working and going to school. I cant even see dating being in the near future as well. I need to find a balance. I need to be able to let the stress of him go.
Thank you so much!