Yes I agree 110%… I know that there will be no wedding August 4th 2017. That ship has sailed already & there is no returning at this point to that dream. But I am more than ok with that. And yes – I agree with you that he, as well as myself, has made this about MY dreams, MY hopes, MY feelings, etc.

More than anything I want to get him back! More than anything I want to be there to comfort him & help him, as he has done for me. And yes, it is not going to based on what was or what could have been, it has to be a new beginning for us. I think that it should be more about the relationship with each other than all the other things. I am willing to let go of that all. I am willing to work on the things that I need to, as I know there are things he needs to work on – such as communication & learning how to deal with stress & pressure.

How do you build a new foundation though while the ruins of the old still stand. Because he is who is he, I am afraid that he is too ashamed or too embarrassed to face me or talk with me. He had his roommate bring everything to me, not him. He didn’t want to see me. He didn’t want to deal with what has happened. My fear is that right now, if it is true what his friend/roommate told my mom about them never seeing him this way, is he even in the right frame of mind to have a conversation or listen to what I have to say. The last thing I want to do is pressure him any further than I already have, if that makes sense.

What is the first step? How do I begin the re-building phase if this?