Hello Clemmonce,

I can understand the pain of loneliness. I was in a relationship for 6 years and when It ended, I nearly ended. I had no life and couldn’t bare the thought of not being with this person. I took a big risk and left my home city of New York and moved to Chicago to get away, to start over.And that choice has grown me hugely. It was a long road but one I wouldn’t change bc of the change it did for me as a women. Now, I’m not telling you the solution is to move away but rather putting yourself first. The word you use the most in reference to your ex is “selfish” which means you were more selfless, so why not switch the roles. Why not become selfish and do the things that make you happy? Don’t you deserve that? Loneliness will come in waves.If you’re looking for it to stop altogether it wont, you just get better at dealing with it. It’s apart of life. I still almost 3 years later have my moments of loneliness, but it gets better. I promise you that. And 6 weeks isn’t enough time. Hell my first year after the breakup and I’d still have breakdowns. Healing takes time. It can be shorter for you than others or it may take longer. But the best answer I could give you is to put yourself first. To truly distance yourself from whats hindering you.It’s going to hurt, it’s going to be hard, but it isn’t impossible. It seems you have more than one reason to walk away rather than to stay.
I’m sorry if this isn’t the best advice, I just want you to know that you are the most important person in your life and that is worthy of selfishness if it means protecting your heart and growing your spirit and confidence. Namaste