Thank you, Anita. I appreciate that and do realize it’s only feelings. They won’t kill me but it certainly feels that way. My therapist tells me to sit with the feelings but at this point I’m not even sure what I feel. I think anger is part of it but I don’t feel I deserve to be angry because of his illness – how can you be mad at a sick person? So many things I’ve been through with him. Driving down the highway at 2am doing 110mph with the lights off and throwing salt out the windows because it’s protective. Ripping all the UPC labels off everything in the house because they can track us. Taking a shower in cold dirty standing water then wearing his clothes – don’t even remember why at this point. Him backing me into a corner and poking me because negative energy was coming through me and I had to release the demons and get my “people” (apparently the Muslims) in check so they can understand the deeper meaning of love. Creating these strange electrical devices and moving them around to scramble the energy. And the hardest, not mentioning details about anything – but I never got the rules quite right about what I could and couldn’t say or ask so most of the time I was just quiet. He is so full of rage and fear himself and wants revenge on those he feels abused him, but he says he will take them down with love. I really don’t even know what that means, but in his mind it’s going deeper and deeper to be at the level of awakening that no one else can achieve and fight some war involving aliens and technology that we’re bring controlled by. Anyway – I’ve been sufficiently brainwashed to the point that I have no idea who I am anymore. I BECAME him and now I’m lost and trying to figure out how to move on in my life with no direction. Again, thanks for listening.