Brav3,

I do appreciate your advice and outlook. I would like to say however, that my break was 3 years ago and my spiritual journey isn’t a direct reason for it. I’ve never looked at this as a fad or a way to get over something. I’ve delevoped myself on my own without any real thought to faith. I actually use to be really conservative Christian, until growing up and realizing that wasn’t for me. I’ve always felt a calling to nature and the universe, I do a lot of writing so self reflect and creativity as always within itself felt spiritual for me. I’ve just felt at this point in my life more drawn to it and learning more.
But as far as your outlook and vantage point of mediating I do appreciate. Very informative and something for me to try. When I said grow In it I meant more so in my knowledge of it. I’ll def take your advice to heart. Thank you.