Thank you everyone for your kind words. I honestly don’t know what I would do without this site right now!

I know I need to gain some self esteem, and just go through the motions and feel everything, its just so hard sometimes.
Im not sure why it just seems I keep picking the wrong guys, hoping that they will change, and it never happens. My internal clock just seems to always be screaming at me…and there is a real possibility that kids will never happen for me, and Im trying to make myself ok with that.

Im in no way ready to really date yet, but I suppose I need to be more picky the next time around.