Dear dragonlily:

No person is an island, we are born social animals, we need others. True happiness is within and without, both. We become more within when we have healthy interactions without.

No wonder you got to a point of not looking forward to anything: this is what social isolation does. Living in a new country, not working for awhile (so you didn’t have social interactions at work), not having a love relationship, no friends- how can a person be content isolated this way…

The man at work, he was your hope for a love relationship and that hope kept you going, looking forward to something. Since he is gone, the hope is gone to.

To move forward from your situation, practicing mindfulness will help in becoming more and more clear about your possibilities. Clearly, there must be possibilities for a better life for you. Hope you keep posting as you get clearer about those possibilities.

anita