THis is so delayed. I really appreciate the input. It makes a lot of sense to say that I put myself second, and you are not the first person to say that. I’m sometimes wonder if maybe it was my fault things didn’t work out because I was so focused on him and not myself. I have a hard time forgiving myself for that, and do intend to talk to someone professional tosort through those feelings. I also have a fear of going through the same heartbreak again and constantly actually have nightmares going back to feeling the way I did when he left me. The idea of dating just freaks me out now and I think that’s a big reason I’m still alone.