Hello Anita,
I just wanted to tell you, I cut off any conversations. Strictly through text. Though this made him even more absent as a father and his financial obligations as one as well. He left a gift on my doorstep on valentines day but i chose to not get hooked into it.
Thought I may not be dealing with him and his toxicity directly at the moment, I know I am still detoxing from the years of it.
I still feel very alone at times. I still hurt, but it feels like a different kind of hurt now. Hard to explain. I wanted to thank you for your advice. Emotionally it has strengthed me.