Thank you so much Anita dearly. I resisted in talking to him tonight, he’s sleeping. I really really wanted to because I feel like he is constnslty just not telling me what I want to hear to feel that “relief” you’re talking about. I feel as if I keep talking and talking and telling him what I hear and what i want to hear from him and what I want him to say exactly, will make me feel better. I keep feeling that I need to express myself to him and that one day he will tell me exactly what I need to hear to move on from the past and I feel that he has just not told me what I want. I constantly feel the urge to talk about the past and to make sure in every shape and form that something like it never happens again. I’m obsessed with making sure life doesn’t repeat himself and obsessed with him reassuring me that he’s changed. It’s absolutely horrendous, and I wish I could just open up and explain to him what is going on in my head, but truthfully, I don’t think someone NOT suffering from ocd will ever understand the need to talk and talk. & to begin with… he doesn’t even like talking he’s way more closed off than I am and really doesn’t like issues etc. I blame this on this past (his dad left his mom for an entire new family). He never grew up in a typical family home. And I have this mission to like change him to be as open as me, but I feel that ocd makes me RIDICULOUSLY OPEN and no one will ever be as open as me.