Dear Penelope Jones:

I understand a bit better now. Being scared explains things to me. Let me know if I understand correctly: before you knew of the existence of the Hollywood man (call him that), you had the thought, that you are “not good enough… not worth the fight”- so when you rejected the Hollywood man  and he withdrew as a result, his withdrawal triggered your anxiety over the thought that you are not good enough, not worth the fight. Next, you started the chase, trying to … make him fight for you, so to prove you wrong-

to prove to you that you are good enough and that you are worth the fight.

anita