Hi Steve,

Thanks for your message…i feel somewhat like i am pouring my heart out too much. You are hardly rambling. I know what you mean about not loving yourself..i think i have that problem too.

As far as my ex is concerned..i know and knew, that he disappointed a lot of people..his family, his friends, some strangers. He is a magnetic person..ive never seen before how someone can attract others so much. He just had a presence for fun..and to a certain extent i didnt have enough energy to keep up with him even though i loved him..i wanted to be the homelife, he had more energy than a 20 yr old. But he definitely has issues and doesnt admit it.

Finding the self love is perhaps one of the hardest things…i am trying one day at a time..at least, i wont jump into another relationship to drown another out..thats not the answer.