Hi Ladies,

Thought I was strong and ready to go then it’s overly nice again.  Like above and beyond and as much as my heart would love to believe all of this, I am reminded of how his niceness was used to pull one over on me while he gave me my time to figure out what I wanted.  What kind of relationship needs to figure out who I am?  what kind of relationship needs for me to distance myself to see I’ve lost my happy free spirit?  it’s like a train going in a circle to fast for me to jump off…And now I don’t feel like I hear them at all.  A few weeks ago the signs were there, nightmares, ect…now nothing, no anxiety either, now is it because the spirits know that I know what decision to make and it’s just going to happen no matter what?  But I really need their strength right now…I kind of feel abandoned by trying to figure out where im going