Dear BoH:

You wrote that you cannot see what you are doing wrong. I think I can:

I think you are confusing the “spiritual path”, the Buddhist practice of Mindfulness,  with feeling good and doing good to others. The practice is being mindful, paying attention to EVERYTHING and accepting all that you feel, as none of what you feel is good or bad.

From your last post I understand that you are attached to feeling good. Attachment is not the Buddhist practice.

And so, my advice to you is to weaken your attachment to feeling good, to feeling energetic, to the emotional motivation to be good to others, and instead pay attention (be mindful) and learn from anything and everything that happens inside of you/ outside of you. Every feeling  you have has a message for you. Tired-> rest. Frustrated with helping another-> stop and take care of yourself.

anita