Hi Susannah,

You make an excellent point. I think because I was truly smitten, I projected that belief onto him (although he did lie and say he was to me numerous times) instead of really objectively observing his behaviour rather than his words. If he was truly smitten for me, you’re right, he wouldn’t have just moved on to the next list of girls so quickly and easily.

He had said to me in the past he had moved on to new relationships quickly to distract himself, but I believed him when he said he was certain he wasn’t doing that with me. He said that I was special, “one of a kind”, and that he knew I was the one for him. After it all ended, it was like he had forgotten he had said any of it to me. I hate thinking that he knew what he was doing all along, that he knew I was going to get hurt. The ad thing he said to me was “I apologize for it all L… I do feel like a piece of sh*t”. Which I suppose means that he is acknowledging what he did was wrong and not simply a case of him changing his mind. It really stings, but I suppose this is what I need to truly move on.