Dear Tannhauser:

Being up and down like a roller coaster, either craving the ups or, when up, isolating, experiencing de-realization and depersonalization is a very difficult experiencing as it goes on and on and on.

For you, this spiritual awakening has been a very painful experience. No wonder you are angry. As you stated many times, you did not ask for these experiences, did not invite those, and understandably you are “angry that this has happened to (you). Really angry”-

I can feel your anger.

anita